Learning to Live (Again)

I have been meaning to write this blog but I have been so busy. I apologize.

First of all, last week I had school exam. It was miserable, seriously I made it through the hell. Secondly I have been busy with drama rehearsal and concentrating on it. I enjoy every second of it but sometimes it’s hell cause I have to bring laptop everyday, don’t you think it’s heavy? Oh yes it is.  But it’s totally fine.

And oh yeah I’ve been so whiny, grumpy and moody lately. Sometimes I feel like I don’t even know myself. I don’t get it. I really really don’t. Or maybe my grades are failing (including English, the only subject I rock at), dealing with remedial tests, or I’ve been spending my time on PC so I feel all alone, no friends, no life, etc. I don’t get why most people think that they’re the most miserable people when something bad happens to us. I need to make myself feel better. I need to make something happen,and I’m really sorry to all my friends, because I’ve been weird and not myself and mean and bitchy and unhappy lately!

A lot of times people have this misconception that their plan A, and only plan, is just to go out and live life. I agree with that plan fully.  And I’m realizing so many things. I’m just seeing God and Beauty everywhere I go. After reading “History of Prayer” I too just wanted to go out and live in meaningful ways and be grateful for everything that comes into my life. But the more I’m living, the more I’m seeing that you have to “live your life”.

Here is some part of History of Prayer:

“I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve. I asked for prosperity and God gave me brain and brawn to work. I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome. I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help. I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities. I received nothing I wanted but I RECEIVED EVERYTHING I NEEDED”

So I jump to conclusion that I need to grow as a person for myself, I need to see God in life, and I need to learn. I need to learn about life and God. We’re called as humans to learn. From the moment we come out of the womb it’s a learning process. It seems like a ridiculous concept really, I don’t know. We have to take this thing that’s been living, breathing, growing, and surviving out of you, so it can live, breathe, grow, and survive, but we learned that’s what we have to do, and then when we’re born we learn to breath again, to live again. That’s what I’m doing now. I’m learning to live again, and it’s beautiful.

Let’s open our eyes and see the beauty that’s right in front of us. Let’s learn to see God through the boarded up windows.

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